I am...
eccentric. unassuming.
unpredictable. strange.
invisible.
working girl by day, bum at night
if you ever get to this here blog, well, congratulations!
welcome to the maelstrom of my innermost thoughts...
and outward ones... heheh.


Line for the day
"I am the eyes in the night, the silence within the wind.
I am the talons through the fire, the shield that guards the innocent.
I shall seek to wear no crown, nor win any glory."

- Guardians of Ga'Hoole by Kathryn Lasky
   

<< September 2017 >>
Sun Mon Tue Wed Thu Fri Sat
 01 02
03 04 05 06 07 08 09
10 11 12 13 14 15 16
17 18 19 20 21 22 23
24 25 26 27 28 29 30




CURRENTS:
Song: For Your Eyes Only (Sitti's version)
Movie: The Holiday
Feeling: Nice
Book: Guardians of Ga'Hoole by Kathryn Lasky


If you want to be updated on this weblog Enter your email here:



rss feed










 
Saturday, June 14, 2014
doink
well, well, well! look what we have here. it's another post! written exactly a year and six days from the last one. my, my, what a feat worth recording by the queen of all things random and trivial. especially since this was deactivated for severe lack of activity. until today. yay me!

stay tuned for the next post next year.

ciao for now!

Posted at 10:54 pm by nagtala si carlotta
 

 
Saturday, June 08, 2013
oh wow
isn't it amazing that i've gone for more than a whole year without posting anything here? same thing goes for my food and travel blog. i've gone on several trips already that are worth posting but no, they are simply filed away in my memory bank. not one of them even made it in my journal. my last post there was i think july of last year. and the entry wasn't even about food or travel.

well, i guess i just needed a break from writing. it seems like a good break though, because for the past few weeks i've been feeling like i should start blogging again. where, i don't know. maybe here, because it's the first blog that i've ever created in a blogging platform. but maybe not, because i'd also like to start anew. should i ever decide on making a new blog, i will still keep this old one because it's where i started. and yeah, because i'm an old sentimental fool like that. :)

maybe i'll post here once a year like i've done in my friendster blog before.

=====================

one recent event in my life that is worth noting is attending tesol. i've met new friends whom i've grown fond of, experienced new challenges that really stretched me to my limits, and had teachers who have really inspired me to do better. it's been more than a decade since i've been to school and going back to study even for just five weeks is quite an experience for me. along with having fun with my classmates in our classes, my mind and body are tested. i've lost hours of precious sleep and more often than not, on the verge of breaking down completely because of exhaustion. even so, attending this course is something that i will treasure all my life.

tesol playlist

let it grow - the lorax
anno domine - trans-siberian orchestra
Christ Be In My Waking - Stuart Townsend
am i forgiven - rumer
i could've been your girl - she & him
when i'm gone (cups) - anna kendrick
windy - the association
just can't be bothered with me - belle baker
le piccadilly - erik satie
laughter in the rain - neil sedaka
masa remadja - white shoes and the couples company
selangkah kesebarang - wsatcc
tristeza (goodbye sadness) - sergio mendes and brasil '66
he leadeth me - hymn
one day more - les miserables
songs by basha


Posted at 12:16 am by nagtala si carlotta
 

 
Tuesday, February 21, 2012
:)
why hello there, old blog. it's been a long time since we last saw each other. hope you're all right. even though i have found other places to throw mindless garbage and baggage around you're still the one the first and nothing will ever change that.

 
Monday, December 12, 2011
wow.
wow. what a great way to start the week. i am a failure. hindi ako maaasahan. at akala ko nagagawa ko ang tama. mali pa rin pala. oohh, failure rings in my ears all the time. with a capital f.

 
Sunday, November 13, 2011
.
what is one of the kind of people that annoy me the most? it's the ones who are actually weak-willed, but are hiding behind large physiques. yun lang ang kaya nila kasing ipagyabang.

 
Tuesday, September 20, 2011
song time
anything but ordinary (avril lavigne) lyrics: Sometimes I get so weird I even freak myself out I laugh myself to sleep It's my lullaby Sometimes I drive so fast Just to feel the danger I wanna scream It makes me feel alive Is it enough to love? Is it enough to breathe? Somebody rip my heart out And leave me here to bleed Is it enough to die? Somebody save my life I'd rather be anything but ordinary please To walk within the lines Would make my life so boring I want to know that I Have been to the extreme So knock me off my feet Come on now give it to me Anything to make me feel alive Is it enough to love? Is it enough to breathe? Somebody rip my heart out And leave me here to bleed Is it enough to die? Somebody save my life I'd rather be anything but ordinary please I'd rather be anything but ordinary please. Let down your defences Use no common sense If you look you will see that this world is a beautiful accident turbulent suculent opulent permanent, no way I wanna taste it Don't wanna waste it away Sometimes I get so weird I even freak myself out I laugh my self to sleep It's my lullaby Is it enough? Is it enough? Is it enough to breathe? Somebody rip my heart out And leave me here to bleed Is it enough to die? Somebody save my life I'd rather be anything but ordinary please Is it enough? Is it enough to die? Somebody save my life I'd rather be anything but ordinary please I'd rather be anything but ordinary please.

 
Monday, September 05, 2011
wala lang
umiikot na naman ang paningin ko. ============ kung ayaw, eh di huwag. huwag nang pilitin ang may ayaw. bahala na kung gusto uli. pero kung hindi, eh hanggang dun na lang. baboo sa iyo. ============ kung meron, meron. kung wala, eh di wala. huwag na kasing nakikialam. walang pakialamanan.

 
Monday, June 20, 2011
isang liham

isang kasalanan pala ang sabihin nang harapan kung ano yung nasa puso mo, lalo na yung sama ng loob. kahit ano pang paraan kung paano mo yun sabihin, kahit yun ang nilalaman ng puso mo na kinakailangang ilabas, kasalanan ang magsalita. kaya dito ko na lang isusulat ang mga gusto kong sabihin. siguro sa ganitong paraan kahit paano mabawasan ang posibilidad na atakihin ako sa puso sa murang edad. bawal kasing sumigaw.

sawa na akong pumagitna sa inyong dalawang nag-uumpugang bato.

ikaw muna. kahit pala anong gawin ko, mali iyon. kahit nasabi ko na ito nang harapan, parang binale wala mo lang din. magkwento man ako ng pangyayari sa buhay ko, kadalasan hindi ka nakikinig. makinig ka man, biglang may maiuungkat ka pa ring kasalanang nagawa ko noong panahon pa ni mahoma kahit wala naman iyong katuturan sa inilalahad kong kwento sa iyo. kaya sa tingin ko hindi na ako magsasabi ng kung ano mang saloobin ko. hinding-hindi na ako magkukwento sa iyo. kakausapin na lang kita kapag kinakailangan talaga. pero ang magkwento sa iyo ng mga maliliit na bagay na naranasan ko, kung anong opinyon ko tungkol sa isang isyu, kahit yung mga kababawan pa, eh, wala na. lahat na lang ng ginawa ko mali sa mga mata mo. akala ko tama ang ginagawa ko o di kaya ang sinasabi ko, ngunit mali pa rin pala. dapat ganito, dapat ganun. at kapag subukin kong magpaliwanag, sarado na ang mga tenga mo. hindi ko talaga maintindihan kung bakit ayaw mong makinig sa akin. ayoko na. sawa na ako. siguro nasa akin na nga rin ang mga kasumpa-sumpang bagay na makikita sa isang tao: makalat. bastos. nakakainis. makasarili. masamang impluwensiya. huwad. walang kwenta. patawad. patawad sa lahat ng mga nagawa ko sa iyong kasalanan. patawad kung hindi man ako katulad ng iba diyang mababait. patawad kung hindi man ako yung pinangarap mong maging. patawad kung iba ang takbo ng isipan ko sa iyo. patawad.

 

at ikaw. ubod ka ng arte. masyado kang sensitibo. ang tanda-tanda mo na, isip bata ka pa rin. kung may kailangan kang malaman tungkol sa mga taong may sama ka ng loob, huwag mo akong tanungin. dumiretso ka sa kanila. masyado ka rin kasing hambog. tapos pag may kailangan ka, sino rin ba ang tutulong sa iyo kundi sila. kaso hambog ka nga kaya hindi mo rin tinatanggap ang tulong nila. eh kumusta ka na niyan? ako pinakikinggan ko ang mga hinaing mo tungkol sa mga taong iyon.sinusubukan kong bigyan ka ng abiso. pero pinaiiral mo pa rin iyang katigasan ng ulo mo at pinipilit na aping-api ka sa kanila. utang na loob naman, magpakalalaki ka at harapin ang katotohanan na may mga tao na kailangan mong pakisamahan. hindi palaging puro ikaw at ikaw na lang ang dapat isipin ng iba. anong obliga-obliga? eh, kawawa ka naman pala. sa laki mong iyan ang hina ng kalooban mo. pakiusap, magpakumbaba ka na at humingi ng tawad. nakakasawa lalo na't nadadamay din ako. magkukwento ka, ikukwento ko sa kanila, at mauuwi ang usapan sa akin, na wala naman akong pinagkaiba sa iyo. kahit na ba ginagawa ko ang lahat ng makakaya ko para hindi maging katulad mo. hindi ko na alam ang gagawin ko sa inyo.


 
Wednesday, May 18, 2011
monkey in ze middle
it's just another day in this frigging house.

 
Thursday, April 21, 2011
alliteration
blowing off steam on the streets of san juan. silence my ass.

Next Page