29 janvier 2010

wow. watta happy happy day. pinaligaya ako ng mga taong malapit sa puso ko. heheh. salamat sa diyos. ^_^

bereans reunion.
enchanted kingdom. dinner at french corner in alabang. dessert at bizu atc.
sleepover at a friend's house
for your eyes only, sheena easton
lovely by sarah jessica parker
warm fuzzies
february 10-11, crystal beach resort, zambales
guardians of ga'hoole series
traveling the US. by myself. three different states.
california. texas. florida.
beloved relatives.
NASA
blogging. blogfriends. blogmeets.
foodtrips with blogfriends.
theater tour with bloggers.
more blogging.
winning a moleskine from a blog contest. (yahoo!)
traveling with cousins to roxas city and boracay. no oldies allowed!
lotsa food trips.
manila trippings.
manila misadventures.
el cheapo gimmicks.
lots of comments.

ahh, yes. 2007 was a very good year.

*sigh*

odiba. kahit sinusubukan mo na ngang magpakabait, kahit alam mong may mali sa sitwasyon, you still manage to screw things up.

hay, relasyon, relasyon.

paano nga ba ito mapapatibay?

may mali kasi eh.

i feel it. that heaviness. emotionally. the events, the situations i've been experiencing in the past months all add up to what i am feeling for a long time now. and i know that if i don't do something, i'd go crazy.

i have to leave. i have to rest. i need a change of atmosphere.

just for a short while. i need to recharge.

the question is,

when?

today has not been a good day.

it's a very, very bad day.

wtf.

there. i blogged again.

boring. no drive to blog. not here, not in my travel blog, nor in my other blog in multiply.

no more.

no mas.

wala na.

pwera lang ito.

so blog pa rin pala ito.

just came home from a friend's bridal shower. the first ever. so fun. so late in my 20's. tignan mo nga naman. haha.

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cool night, warm bed, fluffy pillow. = warm fuzzies. can't wait to nuzzle. so late at night. yet again.

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on to the final stretch. konting tiis na lang.

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slept for 9 hours from sat-sun. then sun night to monday morning = 9 hours again. konti na lang makakabawi na ako from the no sleep from friday night-whole of saturday. i would've achieved an amazing ten hour sleep yesterday (monday) if that darn nasty naughty dog didn't awaken me from my deep slumber. as in i was still dreaming about something,i could already hear that evil yipping in my dreams. oh well. i can see that enticing pillow just waiting to be hugged.

good night. :-P

i am this close to giving up.

i don't think i can do this anymore.

but i have to.

now it feels like work.

if only i can give this up.

ohh, help.

been in a blah mood for quite some time now.

working hard (a.k.a wringing my brain out for more words to come out) these past couple of months has taken its toll on me. i don't mind the fatigue that late nights cause in scrambling to beat surprise deadlines, but having my work blasted when i know i worked hard to make it good, well that's a different story. i've been wondering how i'll be able to bring it up to the person--that is, if ever i get to have the courage to do so.

then there's the matter of the storm pouring on manila last saturday like there was no tomorrow. helping out did wonders to my spirits. but the impending arrival of the second storm and the subsequent frequent warnings on the radio, on fb and even texts the whole week dampened whatever little happy mood i've got left.

AND then the overall gloomy weather just tops it all, something like a bitter cherry on top of a gloppy, muddy mess of my mind, all mushed up.

this feeling i have at the moment is something that chocolates cannot ever work their magic on (i'm just not one of those people relying on chocolates to feel happy anyhow).  sleeping doesn't work either, as i wake up feeling the same way before i fell asleep, so scratch that.

earlier tonight i was just lounging around radio surfing when i came across a station playing bad day by daniel powter. then he sang this line:

so where is the passion when you need it the most?

i laughed. bitterly.

the line says it all.

such a nice episode this is. might as well enjoy it, for it may be my last.

but i'm still praying that it isn't.

oh, Lord, please.